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Thursday, March 17, 2011

Forty

As if on cue, a thick, silky grey hair appeared last week at my right temple. I've been highlighting my hair since I was about 20, so I don't have many opportunities to see grey coming in. However, this thing is The Little Engine That Could. Try as I might, it wasn't going anywhere.

I am almost positive there has been a mistake, but it seems as though I am about to turn 40. This is a big one. You and me, me and you, we've gone through a lot of birthdays together. But this one? This one feels very different. Not bad-different. Just different-different.

I leave in about an hour for Costa Rica, so it must be time to pack. I never got that final paper done (poo), and I left approximately one million e-mails unanswered at work. But there comes a point when you can't *do* any more and you just have to let. shit. go. Thank goodness!

I feel like I've had a lot to say, but I haven't been able to find my words lately. I'm nervous about traveling alone. I've done it so many times over the years -- will it still be fun? I hope my sense of adventure comes back to me quickly. I can feel it creeping in just a tiny bit at times. Huntington Beach called the other night and caught me in a "What was I thinking?" moment. He calmly and confidently said all the right things at all the right times (this is his specialty) and made me feel like the smartest girl in the world for running off alone and clueless to some little place I'd never even heard of not too long ago.

So here I go! I hope I can really take my surfing to the next level with all this warm water practice. I'll be back soon with lots of boring stories about laying around in the sun, reading yummy books, drinking ice cold beer, and surfing my brains out!

8 comments:

  1. Happy Landings, LSL, and Happy Birthday whilst you are away! I know those same feelings of trepidation - ridiculous when we've both travelled as a single person successfully before. I know you'll have a lovely time and come back with lots to tell that will drive us insane with envy. You deserve this break BIG TIME. Have fun!

    Greg x

    p.s. as a man I'm grateful even for the grey hairs, believe me

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  2. Your internal beauty will keep you young FOREVER! Happy Birthday. My friend Michael just returned from his property in Costa Rica. He loves it there.

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  3. So jealous about CR. Geez. Let's get lunch when you get back, eh?

    Glad you're not wigging about 40. Now that I'm 3 years into the 4's, I'm pretty sure age becomes more of an attitude from 40 onward. And you've got the right attitude.

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  4. It is going to be epic. Perfect way to ring in 40.

    Love you!

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  5. Dude. When you get back I think a Lupe's date is in order so I can hear all the fabulous surfing stories you will have!

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  6. I hope you have a fantastic trip and birthday! Sounds like an awesome way to celebrate it.

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  7. Hmm. I'd like to clarify that I'd never heard of the surf camp. I've been familiar with the existence of Costa Rica for quite some time.

    Thanks, guys!!

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  8. We are in the same boat by a matter of weeks. I am feeling pretty content with it at this point. We're all wise and shit now. Let's use it to our advantage but also behave like the kids we still are as we travel and explore the world further. Yay!!

    BIG B-DAY HUG!

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