Saturday, January 12, 2013

I Had a Dad

My Mom called me last night to let me know that my Dad had passed away. It's tearing my heart out of my chest to type that; I haven't been able to tell many of my friends and support people simply because I'm finding it almost impossible to say the words: My dad died.

My Dad lived a complicated life. I rarely talk about him in casual conversation because he is a complicated topic. I have a lot of good and a lot of not very good memories of him. He was a very smart man. He had a Bachelors degree from U of W in Poly Sci. He was a talented baseball player and earned a try out for a MLB farm team many years ago. He worked in finance and balanced our city budget. He had a sense of humor that was sharp as a tack. He and I used to watch Larry Bird and Kareem Abdul-Jabbar and Magic Johnson play basketball when I was very young, and he encouraged me when my only aspiration was to become a Seattle Supersonic.

At one point in his life, he was young and full of promise. He had dreams like every one of us has dreams. He died at age 63, far too early. I think he was proud of me, and I hope that he had some peace in his life.

I'm not sure how I'm going to be able to accept the fact that he is gone. I wasn't quite ready. 


  1. Oh wow. Oh man, I am so sorry.

    I teared up and started crying as I read this. The love you have shines through, even though some parts of life were complicated.

    Sending you so much love and support and if you ever need someone to get a beer with well, I am clearly here.

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  4. I wish we were more connected ... I'm so sorry that your Dad died. Complications or not, it's a life-changing event. All my love and thoughts are with you.

  5. Thanks so much for the very kind comments, my people. They mean a lot.

    (I copied & pasted two of the comments below so I could take my name out of them - I don't mind one bit that peeps know my name. I just want to be kept out of the Google machine. I hope that's ok.)


    Glenn MecheJanuary 13, 2013 at 2:00 PM
    I am so sorry to hear this news. I remember how broken I was when my dad died. He was complicated, too; and although we had reached the time when those issues were resolving themselves, he went too soon. I would given anything now to tell him to his face that I love him for everything he was and that whatever mistakes both he and I might have thought we made, they didn't matter any more.

    AimeeJanuary 13, 2013 at 3:00 PM
    Complications and all, I am sorry your dad died.
    I will be thinking of you as you process his absence.
    Are they holding a funeral or something of sorts? If so, I hope you have a positive experience remembering his influence.

    Cyber hug to you.

  6. I am sorry for your loss. And I'm sorry it's complicated.

  7. Sorry to hear your dad passing. I'm having to take care of mine and he's been sick for quite some time. He sounds like a really great dad.