I wrote this last night but was too tired to proof and publish it, and I thought it was too emotional and confusing. Tonight I realized I am emotional and confusing, so it's ok.
I'm exhausted today and if there is one thing that sets me off in the wrong direction, it's lack of sleep. I really need to sleep well in order to function. And last night I was too excited to sleep.
I wore my Obama pin on my sweater today because I wasn't ready to stop celebrating. I had bloodshot eyes from all the crying last night - could anyone watch the coverage without crying? - and while driving to my civic meeting this morning they started to play his acceptance speech on NPR. That started me crying again.
I'm shocked and thrilled and relieved about Obama's victory, but I'm upset about Prop 8 in California. What happened? What happened! California, we look to you to set trends and lead the way. I know that FL, AZ, and AR have their heads up their asses half the time. But you? What happened?
I hate their Governor for being so wimpy about his opinion that passing Prop 8 was wrong. I'm disgusted that the Mormons, who have apparently forgotten their not-so-distant history of rampant, "God-ordained" polygamy, funded this "victory." I'm sickened at James Dob.son and his Focus on One Type of Family and his intense homophobia and hate.
What have they gained? Do they feel good that they're denying part of the population basic rights? Should we just get separate drinking fountains for gay people? Maybe they should sit at the back of the bus. If you don't think gay marriage is ethical, don't get married to a person of the same gender. Or don't attend a gay wedding. Say your opinion when the topic comes up. Ignore it altogether. But do we really want to be people who legalize discrimination? Do we want proof of our bigotry in a state constitution? I guess we do.
I need to maintain HOPE that we'll eventually get where we need to be. Because I'm excited about Obama, but it doesn't mean the same thing if we ALL can't enjoy it together. All men are created equal? Not in America.