After a few weeks I decided to try the local high school track to see how far I could run. Just for fun. I could run 1/4 of a mile without stopping. I started doing that a few times a week and eventually was able to increase it.
I accomplished something really big this weekend. My brother and I ran the 5k Bank to Bay race in Tacoma, WA. My only goal was to run the entire way and not have to walk at all, and I did it. I finished 41st out of 53 in my age group :>. My amazing brother, who I call my twin (I'm 8 years older), ran with me the entire way and gave me lots of encouragement, especially during a mother of a hill on that last mile. We had fun doing it together.
I'm disappointed to say that I've struggled with my internal dialogue quite a bit since. Ridiculous, I know. I didn't run it fast enough, hard enough, good enough. I haven't lost an ounce during all that running, so what's the point? It's so hard to show up for yourself! So I'm trying to just be proud of my accomplishment. And build on it going forward.