In other news, eHarmony and I are over. My subscription first expired on Valentine's Day (ouch) so I renewed because I didn't want that hanging over my head. Then it expired on my birthday (ouch) and it auto-renewed before I could stop it. Now I've disabled the auto-renew and I have just another week or so. It's ok, it's time.
I originally configured my settings so that I would only get matched with men from my area. I can't see myself moving for a relationship - there will be enough to resent him for later on; I don't need to add that to the list. But after visiting NYC in February and seeing where all the yummy men are kept, I expanded my settings to include NYC. I decided that if I met someone from the City, I could move there and let him think it was for him, when really it would be just because I think I probably belong there. I did get matched with some kind-of interesting, kind-of cute, kind-of tall men from that area, but nothing really amazing. I don't think I have impossible standards or huge walls. I am attitudinal, but only in the cuddliest of ways. Maybe it's the medium - it's so hard to express yourself in a one-shot bio paragraph. Or maybe it's me - I think I've been alone too long and enjoy my own company too much to risk it for "I'm looking for a woman with nice legs who isn't crazy" or "I find literature not only cool but fascinating."
I'm glad I tried it, and I might try it again after a while. I don't know if this is true, but I think it's going to happen for me in a different way. Maybe something more like this: I'll be hanging out with a friend and I'll casually mention that in my closet all of my clothes are grouped by color, shirts to the right, skirts to the left, or that when I have a cold I keep track of my sneezes with tick-marks on a sticky note, and they'll look at me and say, "Oh my god, I have someone you have to meet."