I finished up jury duty at 11:00 on Monday and took today off of work. For the last day and a half I've pretty much just been digging around potting plants and enjoying the sun. It's easy to feel carefree and peaceful in weather like this. It has made me so happy - it's perfectly perfect perfection. Today I got quite a bit of sun on my face, which I love. I do worship the sun god, it's true.
This afternoon I had my second acupuncture appointment with my new guy. He's pretty funny, and the treatment is heavenly, but every time it starts the same way: "Let me see your tongue . . . good . . . how are your bowels?" I don't know. They're ok. How are yours?
I'm updating my resume (hate doing that) and applying for a few jobs here and there. I hate looking for a job. After my stressful situation in Japan and my ten-month job search here in NY, I feel guilty for wanting something other than what I have. And I feel ashamed that I hate my current situation - like I struggled to get out of a bad relationship and then got right back into another bad relationship. I enjoy what I do . . . I wish I could write details - details! - and purge it all out, but alas, the Internets are a small world. Maybe my next list will be 100 jobs that I would gladly do. Anderson Cooper's Personal Assistant would be in the top ten. Backstreet Boys Backup Dancer. Seashell Collector. Cookie Taster.
The hillbillies in the house next door have taken to riding a jet ski-like thing on wheels for hours and hours every night. It's so peaceful to sit on my porch reading a book and have someone suddenly start a chainsaw an inch behind my ear. That's what it sounds like.
I'm still too traumatized by the trial to write about it. That surprises me, but it's true. I'm proud of myself for doing my civic duty; I'm glad I did it. It was very, very difficult. And I'm really sick of every person (without exception) asking me why I didn't get out of it and telling me they would have. How clever, I never thought of getting out of it. But I did it and got a terrible, terrible trial and I need some time to have it get further behind me. Just a little further and then I'll feel better.