I'm not actually doing the specific work associated with my role yet, I'm just dealing with loads of HR stuff, but so far things are going pretty well. Good people, good organization. My paycheck last Friday was a little shocking. Mon dieu! I'm going to take a look at a one bedroom apartment (I have a 2 bed/2 bath right now, which I adore) in my complex and just see if it's even fathomable. I'm not sure where the surfboard goes if I have to give up the garage, but I'm just going to look. We're causal in my office, and I have to say: wearing casual clothes every day is too awesome. I'm all over khakis and polos. And commuting 10 minutes is so great. There's a real pull to stay late and take on little extras . . . but I'm trying to keep it balanced.
School is helping me keep work balanced because it takes up so much damn time and energy. I'm
A week or so ago we started a new class and the prof had us go around and introduce ourselves and say how we were enjoying the program so far. I decided to put it out there and was honest about not loving the program and really struggling with wondering if I should keep going or not. Well. ALL HELL broke loose at that point and we spent the next couple hours debating, yelling, kicking, screaming.
School has been much better since that day. At first when ALL HELL broke loose, I thought, "Well, there it is. There's the proof that this isn't a good fit for me." But oddly enough, it was a turning point for me in a good way. I think that was the point at which I stopped being what I thought the group wanted me to be and the real me started showing up. And the real me has been going to class ever since. Sometimes it's a little awkward during class discussions because I don't say the perfect thing or agree with the rest of the nodding heads, but in general it's going much better now. I'm one person - at work, at school, when I'm surfing, when I'm running. It's just me.
In the current class, I team-teach a 20-minute segment of class every Wednesday. My first week went better than I could have imagined and really reaffirmed my desire to teach -- something I was not expecting from the experience. I hope tomorrow goes well, too. I really need that encouragement after a long week of doing homework on my breaks at work and staying up late (um, 4:30 AM last Saturday?) writing crappy papers.
I did blow off my first teaching conference last Saturday to spend a perfect, sunny day at the coast surfing. I can't wait to tell you guys about it.